Serenity Jade Summers
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"Can you tell I'm the girl with the broken smile?"
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 15:16:14 GMT -5
Serenity sat at the park, wrapping her coat tighter around her body as she sat underneath a tree. She had spoken to her mother, she had come clean about her abuse, drug addiction and self harm which felt good to finally come clean about it. Sure it would be a hard few months, but her mother knew the truth and she could finally get the help she needed. She wondered where Willow was, since Buffy had mentioned for her to talk to Willow about her own addiction.
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 15:21:23 GMT -5
"It's a beautiful day, any reason for my favorite Serenity to be alone at the park?" Willow said, smiling walking towards her best friend's daughter. Her stiff arms were buried in her coat pockets. Buffy told Willow that Serenity would be at the park at that very time, that she needed to talk, "So, why so glum?"
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Serenity Jade Summers
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 15:26:00 GMT -5
Serenity smiled when she saw Willow. "Hey." Serenity wondered where she would begin. The beginning. Or most of it. She thought. "I let slip a huge secret when I was at the cafe with mom. I'm surprised she didn't yell at me." Serenity wondered if Willow had any idea what she was talking about. "If mom hasn't told you then I should fill you in. I'm addicted to drugs." Serenity sighed softly
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 15:31:36 GMT -5
Willow raised her eyebrows, surprised all of that was said so flatly, "Your mother didn't tell me," she knelt down next to Serenity, "Why didn't you tell anyone before? Being addicted to anything is dangerous, you could get hurt, people you love can get hurt. This isn't just something you should hide and ignore like it's no big deal, it's a very big deal." Willow spoke softly, not yelling, but not speaking calmly.
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Serenity Jade Summers
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 15:35:54 GMT -5
"Oh." Serenity replied before listening to what Willow had to say. "I know about the getting hurt bit. I cut my wrist when I was high on the drugs." Serenity was lucky she hadn't died. "The reason why I didn't say anything was because theres a whole lot of pain and hurt behind it, a story that goes with it. The reason why I got addicted to it in the first place." Serenity drew her knees up to her chest.
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 15:40:01 GMT -5
"I kind of know what you mean," Willow sighed. Magic was good to her, but she toyed with it, lost control, developed what seemed like an addiction. She hurt people and didn't want to hurt anyone. She didn't want someone who was like family to her go through the same experience in some way. "Why did you start?"
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Serenity Jade Summers
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"Can you tell I'm the girl with the broken smile?"
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 15:44:42 GMT -5
"Mom told me to come to you, about how you dealt with your addiction." Serenity replied. She had always respected Willow, and even now she still had respect. Willow was like family to her. "I started when I had too much pain and hurt I was carrying around from a child hood experience." Serenity didn't know how Willow would react to the abuse.
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 15:48:25 GMT -5
"Childhood experience?" Willow repeated. She knew just how she'd explain the getting over the addiction. "Well I nearly killed your Aunt for starters, but that was nothing. When I was really bad I killed some guy and almost destroyed the world." May be possible laying it on light would be a good thing to do, she thought.
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Serenity Jade Summers
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 16:01:02 GMT -5
Just as she thought, nobody knew. Buffy hadn't told Willow that piece either which she was grateful for. But then it made her explaining a little more difficult because she would keep remembering. "You remember Jessica right?" Serenity asked. "My best friend who we swore we would be friends forever?" Serenity took a deep breathe, holding back the tears. It was still hard for her to talk about it. "Her father was a bad man. H-he sexually abused me, no one knew about it except him and me."
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 16:15:44 GMT -5
Willow's expression changed quickly, "Oh, oh, oh," was all Willow said. She didn't know what to say. She took a deep breath, "Are you still doing drugs?" She wanted to change the subject, it was a tender one and a park wasn't the best place for discussion.
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Serenity Jade Summers
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 16:25:56 GMT -5
Serenity nodded. "Until a few days ago yea." She had gotten rid of her stash like her mom told her too, and it was easier than she thought. Mind you thats because she didn't take hard drugs like heroin. One of the drug dealers little brother got hooked into heroin and it screwed him over badly. So Serenity kept away from it. "Mom told me to get rid of my stash so I did."
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 16:37:56 GMT -5
"Okay," Willow nodded, a weak smile curving her lips, "Have you between that time craved any drugs?" That was always the hardest part. The aftermath. Looking back at the path of your destruction and wanting to go back and hide in a corner from all the problems of the world. Or at least that's how Willow felt sometimes. Life isn't easy.
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Serenity Jade Summers
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 16:43:25 GMT -5
"Mostly for the snorting drugs, a weaker version of coke was what we got given by the drug dealers. Thats pretty much the only drug I've craved because it got into my system quicker and the aftermath was just amazing." Serenity shook her head. "No, not amazing. It was bad, very bad." Serenity would get passed this, she knew she would. With help from her family, and friends who were practically family, she would get through this tough time.
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Post by Willow Rosenberg on Nov 8, 2007 16:58:47 GMT -5
Willow sighed, "It'll get better. With the hell everyone's been through it's bound to get better some way." She wasn't sure everything would get better. They deserved better than what situations they were put in. Saving the world various times is definitely something to help the world.
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Serenity Jade Summers
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"Can you tell I'm the girl with the broken smile?"
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 8, 2007 17:03:32 GMT -5
"I hope so." Serenity replied. She could tell Willow what she showed her mother. She could trust Willow, so why wasn't she telling the full truth to her? "This may not help matters but you deserve to know. I've attempted suicide before, plus." She pulled up the sleeve to show the scars on her wrists. "Looks like I'm more screwed up than people thought. A huge disappointment."
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