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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 10, 2007 9:53:02 GMT -5
Buffy felt an unyeilding anger for the man that had tried to kill her little girl. If she ever got her hands on him.....there'd be nothing left....Serenity shouldn't have to feel sorry about it. This wasn't her fault and Buffy knew how hard it must have been to keep it all bottled up. "Sorry?! Don't be sorry, it's not your fault!" Buffy exclaimed. "I know now, we can get him locked up..Or i can beat him up if you like!" Buffy smiled faintly. "But you have to know that i don't blame you...."
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 10, 2007 9:59:05 GMT -5
"But I lied to you. I took drugs, I cut myself, tried to commit suicide. Everytime people asked if I was okay, I would lie. I didn't even tell you what was going on when I should've." Serenity took a few deep breathes, but her tears kept falling. She was so scared, and she just wanted everything to be better. "I'm even afraid of meeting new males." Serenity had a slight fear of new males, even when Lance placed his hands on her, she would sometimes freak out. I should tell him but he will probably want to kill Mike. She thought to herself.
"As long as there is enough of him so I can have a go." She replied softly. "What do we tell dad?" Serenity knew that her dad would have to know. She was his daughter, she could not hide it from him forever.
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:05:18 GMT -5
Buffy almost felt like crying herself when she heard all of the terrible things that Serenity had done. Yet she didn't blame her at all. She felt sorry for her. She shivered at the thought of her daughter trying to take her own life. "I forgive you" Buffy said simply."Meeting males....Well, that'll come with time, once you learn to trust people and let them in again" she said slowly. She smiled. "We can kill him together, fun for the whole family!" she said happily, then looked thoughtful. "I don't know....What you told me i guess...." she said.
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:10:07 GMT -5
She nodded at her words, hoping she could trust again because she didn't want her relationship with Lance to be ruined because of it. "I'll have to tell Lance. He deserves to know after I freaked out on him." Serenity thought for a moment. "I'm scared to tell him. I don't know how he will react." Serenity wondered what Spike would do when he found out. She looked to the floor, her fingers tracing around her scars as she thought.
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:18:04 GMT -5
Buffy nodded too. "He does deserve to know. That way he might be able to help regain your trust again" she offered. "Well i wasn't mad at you when you told me....I can't imagine Lance or you Dad getting angry. They both love you, and that's what matters." They hadn't really had any situations like these in the Summers family before, so Buffy herself did wonder how her husband but react. But she knew Spike, and knew he would be supportive regardless of how he felt.
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:23:15 GMT -5
Serenity smiled softly, her tears beginning to fade. "Won't they be more angry that Mike did this to me?" Serenity wondered, before remembering something. "Mom, you might want to take my throwing knives and my daggers away." Serenity mostly used them for self harming so without them, she couldn't hurt herself. "I use them for the whole self harm thing." Serenity shrugged slightly, knowing it was bad but she had been doing it for so long it would be good to stop.
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:46:32 GMT -5
"Yeah i suppose they will...." Buffy said in agreement, then took in what Serenity said next. Self-Harming....Buffy thought to herself, How could i not see her pain? Notice the scars? She felt almost guilty. She nodded. "Will do", "It'll get easier" she assured her.
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 10, 2007 13:51:06 GMT -5
She smiled in relief before wondering something. She wondered if her mother was feeling guilty for not knowing or seeing anything that was going on. The answer was simple. There was nothing to see because she hid it so well, so Buffy shouldn't have to feel guilty. "Mom, I hid it from everyone, I lied and said everything was okay and I hid the scars so no one would know." She hoped this made her mom feel better because it was tearing herself up.
As she heard her mother assuring her that it got easier, Serenity nodded, feeling slightly more at ease. "I know. It's just the beginning thats hard, giving it all up."
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 11, 2007 11:09:28 GMT -5
Buffy sighed inside and out at her daughter's words. That was just what she needed to her. Now i don't feel like such a failure....she thought to herself, It wasn't that i couldn't see, it was that she hid it so well...Something i'm pretty good at myself.."Oh, well, that does help" she admitted with a faint smile. She then nodded. "Yeah...You'll get there eventaully..." she assured Serenity. "And sweetie, if you ever have anything like that happen to you again, just tell us straight away, ok?" she asked.
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 11, 2007 14:50:45 GMT -5
"You'll be the first to know." Serenity reassured her mother. "I just didn't know how to tell you. I was always scared, and I didn't know how you would react." Serenity was glad to finally have it in the open. It would be easier to deal with, easier to get the help she needed. And she would not have to hide the pain any longer. Speaking about it makes me feel a lot better. Still a little scared but a lot better.
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 11, 2007 16:48:26 GMT -5
Buffy smiled. "Thanks, I'm glad" she replied, then glanced at her daughter who seemed worried that she didn't tell her mother before."It's ok, I understand." Buffy was glad Serenity had decided to tell her. That way she didn't have to deal with everything by herself, which would mean taking longer to heal and get help.
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Post by Serenity Jade Summers on Nov 12, 2007 22:22:43 GMT -5
"It's not okay. I should of been able to trust you enough for me to speak out." Serenity replied. "If I told you sooner, I wouldn't of ended up being a self harming drug addict who tries to commit suicide." Serenity sighed, closing her eyes before reopening them. "I need help." Serenity had never spoke those three words, and saying them made her realize just how deep she was in and how much help she needed.
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Post by Buffy Summers on Nov 14, 2007 13:39:52 GMT -5
Buffy shook her head vigorously, though it felt like someone was stabbing her as Serenity said 'self harming drug addict who tries to commit suicide' "Everyone slips up occasionaly. Mistakes are inevitable. It's true. Being human, you will make mistakes. Although sometimes things can't be undone or erased, maybe it still can be fixed. If you don't give yourself a break, then who will? If you can, cut other people a break too. Nobody is perfect, so why expect them to be? Mistakes will happen. What matters is how you deal with them." Buffy began, "But you've got everyone on your side, you've got tonnes of people who love you" she finished, then took in Serenity's next words. That reminds me of me.....she thought. "We're gonna get you the help you need to pull through, i promise" she nodded.
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